This is the real world sweetie, nobody gives a fuck.

She’s right.

I shouldn’t be sorry, I shouldn’t be sad, I shouldn’t be feeling guilty.

Everything happens for a reason. If there’s one thing I learned in my short-lived life, it’s that.  Sometimes, we just don’t have control over things.  And no matter how sucky it may seem, it’s not always such a horrible thing. 

These adversities challenge us to go beyond our comfort zones and extend ourselves to try new things.  These adversities humble us, and remind us that we can’t always have it all.

But, where there’s a will, there’s a way.  Nothing is impossible, Phi. 4:13.  Anybody could’ve had this opportunity. 

I always knew what I wanted, so I set my mind to it and I worked hard.  I worked my ass off in high school to get where I am today.  I had my ups and downs, but ultimately, I pulled through and I am where I am today.  I could’ve slacked off, I could’ve wasted my senior year away by taking easy classes, and I could’ve given up. But I didn’t; and this is why.

I’m sorry, but I’ve never been happier.  Taking this step is me living out my dreams.  I’m sad and I’m sorry and I’m worried as hell, but I’m excited.  I know in my heart that this is the right thing for me, so I’m just going to ignore my subconscious and start being happy for me.  I think it’s about time I stopped thinking about other people and what they think of me, and start thinking about myself.

// I WANT A FUCKING 2380 ON MY SAT WTF SUPERHUMANGIRL//

// Fucking society.//

So in school, they encourage us to dream.  They want us to think about our future and they want us to make goals for ourselves that are both practical and liberal. 

So I did that. I thought about my future and I thought about my goals.  After much contemplation and endless decisions, I settled on a major and I planned out what I was going to do with my life henceforth.  It wasn’t anything typical, and it wasn’t anything whack either.  It was achievable, I thought, and it would require me to challenge myself. 

So not only did I dream, I took action.  I applied to my dream school- a school that I never thought I’d be able to get into.  Of course, I applied to other schools as well.  But none did I want as badly as this. 

So I got my letter. And I was ready to cry…. tears of joy.  I was so ecstatic; I was in disbelief and I was in shock and I was speechless and I was just, afdsfjdfdsfnfklmgr!!!

And then, I looked at my financial aid packet and then I was ready to cry…. tears of wtf. 

It’s crazy how something as superficial as money can dictate whether or not you’re able to fulfill your dreams.  I’ve never wanted anything so badly.  And now that I’ve received an opportunity to achieve that, I can’t.  Because of money.

Great going, society.   Way to foster ambition into future generations and then knock them down.

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